I’ve been feeling convicted by my negative attitude lately…
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.
Philippians 2:14-16
blameless.
pure.
I can’t remember a moment within the past two weeks that I’ve truly felt blameless.
My outlook on life seems polluted by a constant negativity. Maybe it’s watching the news too closely in the wake of China or Myanmar or whatever other catastrophe occurs. Maybe it’s the realization that how I spend my time and resources is rarely in line with what it could or should be. Maybe it’s the combination of several things.
Whatever the cause, I am constantly reminded of this enormous chasm between what I say I believe and how I live out what is truly in my heart… and I am totally humbled by God’s grace.
Phil Wickham’s song “Grace” brought tears to my eyes as I read through the lyrics today.
The sky is gray and the light is far
The sea is a rage within my heart
I turn my sight to the crashing waves
I cry in the night just to be saved
I need eyes to be my guide
I need a voice that’s louder than mine
I need hope I need You
Cause I can’t do this alone
Grace I call Your name
Oh won’t Your smile fall over me
I’m cracked and dry on hands and knees
Oh sweet grace rain down on me I need You grace
I pray for dawn a new day to live
I pray for mercy only Jesus gives
Though darkness falls and a million cry
I believe over all there’s a greater light shining for us
Come down and save me
